My 500 words day 5

Today was a great day. The word for today is fear. What is fear? What does it mean to be afraid?

The dictionary says fear is a distressing emotion triggered by impending danger, evil or pain whether the threat is real or imagined. It’s funny that the impending danger may be imagined. To be afraid means to be worried that something undesirable will happen.

Why do we expect undesirable things to happen to us? I definitely want good things to happen to me but I find easier expecting bad things. Is it the fear of disappointment or is it because the world is already messed us. Whatever the case we should always look for and expect good things.

Fear brings torment. Torment means extreme physical and mental pain. I don’t like the pain fear brings. Fear paralyzes to be paralyzed is to lose the ability to move. Fear causes stomach upsets. Fear makes a person indecisive. You lose opportunities when you fear. Fear is a spirit. It is invisible but it’s real. You don’t see it; you only see its effects and its results.

I have had issues with fear. And the reason for my fears where only imaginations but it felt so real, sometimes the cause of fear is utterly ridiculous. I have been afraid that God was angry with me, I have been afraid of rejection, I have been afraid of people’s reaction to my success. How can you expect something undesirable to come out of being successful? I have been afraid of people not liking me. Fear can be irrational.

God is so gracious, he knows us and knows our fears, he has made provisions to help us overcome. I read a scripture today and it gave me courage. Psalm 91.5 you shall not be afraid…  I shall not be afraid because I go to God for refuge.

Perfect love cast a way fear because there is no fear in love. How does this work?

I don’t know how this works yet but I am going to find out. But one thing I am certain about is that God has not given me the spirit of fear but he has given me the spirit of power, the spirit of love and a sound mind. 2^nd Tim1:7. So whenever fear attacks I know what to do, I show it the door because there is no space in my life for it. So my next research is to find out how perfect love casts out fear. I hope I’ll be able to find answers by tomorrow.

God has been very gracious to me today. Tomorrow would have been tough navigating my family to and from church without the car but God has made a way. One thing I kept saying over and over was tomorrows going to be great and it is.

I am grateful to God for giving my husband a safe trip. I am also thankful because my children were alright. All is well. God is good. Ciao people.

My 500 words day 4

My bucket list;

In no particular order and it may change with time;

o   Achieve and stay on my ideal weight 68kg

o   Run a marathon

o   Climb a mountain

o   Learn French

o   Live abroad (outside Africa)

o   Learn Lawn tennis

o   Learn how to swim

o   Sing professionally

o   Go to music school

o   Work with or for UNICEF

o   Do public speaking

o   Do bungee jumping

o   Write books(become an author)

o   Do stand-up comedy(nah lie)

o   Fly first class

o   Go on a cruise

o   Meet Don Moen

o   Meet Myles Munroe

o   Eat Paleo for a month

My favorite movies

o   Coach Cater

o   Facing the gaints

o   Anything  Madea

o   New years eve

o   The Shawsank redemption

o   Rush hour 1

o   Rush hour 2

o   The sound of music

o   Lean on me

o   The internship

o   Les miserable

o   Gladiator

o   Hotel Rwanda

o   Akeelah and the bee

o   The lion king

o   Pocahuntas

o   Mulan

o   Alladin

Favorite TV shows

o   The Cosby show

o   The mentalist

o   Elementary

o   Law and order

o   Special Victims Unit

o   CSI NY

o   CSI MAIMI

o   CSI LA

o   Monk

o   Modern Family

o   My wife and kids

Favorite Books

o   A voice in the wind

o   As sure as dawn

o   An echo in the dark

o   Atonement child

o   Deadline

o   The fist of God

Hobbies

o   Trying out new recipes

o   Watching movies

o   Searching for information

o   Thinking

o   Teasing people

Writing lists is not my favorite thing to do. It’s always better to have a topic pre planned.

Todays 500 words have been tough to write because e I really did not have anything prepared.

My day was okay. I collected my test results and did the ultra sound everything was normal except an ovarian cyst. So why am having hormonal imbalances? I am not worried though. I’ll get over this. My first plan is to lose 10kg and then another and then another. One of the risk actors of this hormonal issues is being overweight so I’ll deal with that and let nature take its course.

How am I going to lose this 10kg, I am looking at following a low carb plan. I have dabbled into low carbs a few times but never succeeded, I think I am always double minded when I am doing low carb because of the cons. If I can just let go of the doubts and look at it as an experiment one week at a time it will really be great.

Running I actually mean jogging is part of the plan. 3 days jogging 3 days strength and one day rest.

Sleeping early is another factor to consider. I sleep late. Yesterday I slept at about 1.am for no valid reason.

I have to research the relationship between late sleep and hormonal imbalances. Whatever it takes I am going to deal with this and overcome. So here we are close to the end of my write up for today.

My 500 words day 3

Today has been dull, I read a lot and ate a lot. There was no light and no water and it wasn't fun but we endured.
My write up today is supposed to be about thoughts

I don’t claim to be an expert but I will attempt to write the little I know or think.

Thoughts???? What are thoughts and why are they important.  A thought is an idea, a plan, opinion or picture formed in your mind. So why are thoughts important? How does a thought affect you? Why is what you think important?

The center of thought is the mind. You win or lose in your mind. People create movies in their minds. We make choices with our minds. The way I feel is prompted by my mind. I make decisions in my mind and I chicken out with my mind. The words I speak are thoughts expressed. I judge my situations in my mind.

The bible tells us to keep our hearts with all diligence for out of it flows the issues of life. As a man thinks in his heart so he is. Jesus said a good man from the good treasures of his heart flings out good things and an evil man from the evil treasures of his heart flings out evil things. I think it’s safe to say that if I clean out my heart and thoughts I will clean out my life. But how does this really work.

Be transformed by the renewing of your mind. When you renew your mind you change. It starts from the inside. What is the process of renewing the mind?  I believe it involves deliberately making new choices. I am privileged to be a believer in Jesus and I have the Holy Spirit living in me. The process of renewing my mind will involve consistently listening and obeying the voice of the Holy Spirit. I get familiar with His voice by reading the bible and I listen for his voice in my heart for daily activities, this is going to be deliberate until it becomes a habit.

Do not be shaped by this world; instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect. Rom 12:2 NCV

You can either be shaped by your environment or decide your path by changing the way you think. Putting it in to perspective for me is that I can either decide to live the way I have been living and continue to repeat the results I have been getting or take a higher way and get a better result. I can change the way I respond to things. I can choose to see beauty, grace, solution, victory, inspiration motivation instead of doom, failure, and helplessness.

The scripture puts it aptly in Philippians 4:8 AMP For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

This is my standard this is my reference point, is it true, is it worthy of praise, is it lovely and is it excellent? Ciao people.

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